yourskinandmine

^{we walked out of her house. its raining, do you want my sweater, is like pouring. no, that's alright, i like my hair drenched. we turned the corner. do you have your lighter with you? why do you have one anyways, you don't even smoke. - in case of situations like this. weirdest statement I've ever heard. haha you're adorable. -- if you say so. i layed in the middle of the road with you 10 feet in front of me sitting on a ledge behind someones property. i miss you.
what?
oh, nothing , i was singing a song.
oh.
constellations never looked better. I found 4, most I've found the whole time I've lived here. you sat next to me, and i played with my hair. i'm not nervous..this party sucks, i wanna get in my car and leave. i do too, but she'd be upset, its her birthday. my hair was dripping.

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i found your ankle beds behind the window, thrown 18 feet next to a tree i sat underneath when i read in the summer. when the breeze would tell me secrets, when i could hear you laugh. i drew our names in dirt, but it always washed away when it rained. i dreaded that. the house is easier to sneak into now, they expect me there. the walls, the windows, the floors, expect me there. when they're creaking they're laughing i told her. i still don't think she fully believes me. she's still scared. i can sing now, when i walk up the stairs. no one can hear me anymore. i settled in with the dust, made angels, the Eiffel Tower, your heart-beat. painted conversations into the wall, with the forest. it cant get lonely if there's words, i told myself. nothing can be lonely here, the hurricanes died years ago. i glued leaves to the kitchen floor so the smell of fall would linger through every room in the house. candles do no justice. but your voice was the soundtrack to every step i made.
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this house doesn't feel like a house. it feels like a box, where i sleep, where i eat and do it all over again. i feel locked. i've come to the conclusion that i'd live better on my own. im not a very big people person , and ive never been the social one. i'll bring someone with me, and we'll just live some-where. any-where. it doesn't matter where. where-ever they want is fine with me. I've grown to not be as picky as before. Life changes, i think i finally grew accustomed to that. surprisingly. i graduate in 5 months and some odd weeks. i turn 18 in 6. adult-hood here i come so they say.}

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